Here’s what I wrote at the beginning of the month:
This is a short-term (30 day) nutritional reset. I eat this way (whole foods, and for me, low glycemic index) most of the time already; the big changes for me are no coffee, no wine, no cheating. (I slated January as my Whole 30 month, but I was dreading giving up the coffee so much I started it early so I could just get it over with already.)
Today’s my last day of no coffee/no alcohol/no sugar/no cheats, and I’m shocked at how different I feel. Shocked.
Att the beginning I just felt grumpy, and sad that I couldn’t have my coffee or wine. (I hate to tell you that, but let’s be honest: those are the two things I missed the most. My mom kept asking which I missed more. My answer? It depends on what time it is!)
After Day 3, it wasn’t hard. Really.
On Day 6, in the middle of the afternoon, I felt this huge burst of energy. This does not usually happen to me at 2pm; but it was unmistakable, like somebody flipped a switch. From that afternoon, my energy levels shot up, my brain fog disappeared. I’d been having some health-related anxiety (which is oh-so-easy for me to fall into since 9/11), and it vanished.
Since Day 6, I’ve fallen very easily into a virtuous cycle: with extra energy, I don’t have to drag myself out of bed in the morning–I just wake up. It’s easier to exercise–and then I feel better because I do. I have more patience with my kids. I’m (even) nicer to my husband. I sing more!
Did I tell you I feel amazing?
I feel great, but my feelings about my awesome Whole 30 results are surprisingly complicated. It’s nice to feel great and all, but I’d really like my coffee back. And my red wine. And I’m terrified that when I add those things back in, I’m going to feel like crap. And then what?
(I don’t like the answer.)
Tomorrow morning, I’m looking forward to a glorious cup of coffee. Next week, I’ll try a glass of wine and see how that makes me feel. I’m hoping the answer to both is “just fine,” because it’s great to feel amazing–but wouldn’t it be better to feel amazing and get to drink wine and coffee? I think so.
(If you’re thinking about trying something like this, can I just encourage you to go for it? The worst part of my Whole 30 was the dread of the beginning. Once I got started, it was fine. Even before Day 6. And the results might surprise you. And then you might have complicated feelings about them….but you can cross that bridge when you get there.)
Have you ever had complicated feelings about your own success? Tell us all about it….and feel free to give me a pep talk in comments!